|As I had promised to Kenika, my friend, she like reading love story books.. I’m going to post her a story that I used to post for few years ago… I found it from achieve old blogging yesterday.. my first extracted edition story and my last one.. I have planned to write another story about Cambodia and life, though I’ve been searching for reasons and some helpful materials to support my writing to go future… now I’m stuck in a small lonely room… will buzz you when my second book get published
|I think, it’s not a love story, but it’s a story about love… LOOSING THE LOVE, some readers popping up to correct the spelling of the story… no, no,no… I wanted to make a different, it’s a different of spelling and story lines :
LOOSING THE LOVE
********** PART 1 **********
|July 25, 1999
My name is Chan Lida. I’m 19, still be youth I am dying. Not right now but my eyes are slowly fading away because my teardrops keep rolling down every single night as I’m writing A story, THE STORY OF A MISERY.
At this moment I’m sitting on the sand at Ou Chhuer Teal beach looking to the long stretch of the sea and asking myself will my love comes back? Mine and Pin Sun Won, is the first love of my life. The sun is slowly beginning to set over the sea. We can see how deep of the sea but cant see the mans heart.
I took a glance at my reflection in the water. My outside looks have changed drastically within the past few months, but the water reflected the true me. Inside I’m still the same person. I have done and given so much for love but never once, have I received it back from Sun Won.
There are times that I wanted to tell him everything that I’ve done for him and make him, love me back. But I cant. Love is not selfish, love is patient, love is generous, love is never boast, love is fully forgiven, love is fully believe and persevere everything. Since the day you went away the weather changes, I lived in a miserable life. It was completely disappointed and depressed during the hell times passed by I died since then.
No more Lida in this world. It was raining and also rain now, raining in my heart. Raindrops keep falling down on the street, but my eyes soon turning red. Crying not for me, but I can felt salty POURING RAIN keep rolling down on my pale cheek, is it the raindrops? Of course these raindrops keep falling down once I am thinking of someone.
Eventhought, I still can’t stop the rain by complaining. I complain no more, because the farmer will complain me if I’m gonna complain the rain.
Life can never be exactly like we want it to be. I can be satisfied, just knowing that I still be some where in his heart. So I did what felt right. I keep giving Sun Won my love and I never asked for his love in return. Although, I’ll leave this world pretty soon, my love for him will still remain.
As a matter of fact, my body changed but my feeling remains. My love to you will never change. My story begins when I first met Sun Won six years ago on this one fateful day. It all started out…
|********** PART 2 **********
|*Whack whack whack.*
I cried out in pain but I knew that no one is going to hear my cries. I desperately began to gasp for air. My heart was aching again. I couldn’t breathe.
“Not again! Don’t you see how much you’re costing your father and me with your heart problems? If it wasn’t for all these medical bills we wouldn’t be so poor now!”
I had this heart condition where air would suddenly shut off and I couldn’t breathe. The doctors are trying to save me by giving me a respirator and pills, but they’re not sure how much longer I’ll be able to live. My dad (who was a pathetic excuse for a man) came in. He looked down at me with sorrowful eyes. He held my step mom’s arm lightly and said,
“I think she had enough. You don’t want her to have another attack. Calm down and let’s have dinner.”
“That’s why I’m hitting her!” she yelled. “She got detention and stayed after school for an hour. She was supposed to be home to go buy food for dinner and make it. Your daughter is so evil. She wants me to starve or something!”
|“I didn’t get detention. The teacher wanted to talk to me about—“ But I was cut off by the whack of my step mom’s stick. I cried silently in pain and turned away.|
|I am remind of a poem that I often hear everything single night….
If you come as softly
|But I was cut off by the evil of my step mom’s voice..
|I didn’t want to look at her. My dad said,|
|“Well, dinner’s just going to be a little late today. Lida, say sorry to your mom.”
Despite the pain, I managed to say, “Sorry mom. Please forgive me.” My dad handed me some money.
“Here. Go buy food to make chicken curry tonight.”
My step mom’s temper simmered down a little as my dad leads her out of my room. I picked up the money and headed for the store.
Mr. Sothea, the owner of Lucky Super Market, shook his head as I walked in. He knew what kind of hell I was going through. I finished my shopping and checked out.
“What?” I asked. “ Umm…Mr. Sothea.
I opened my mouth in shock. “Mr. Sothea…I…I can’t do that,” I said as I handed him $15. He only took five. “No. Keep it. I know that step mom of yours DOESN’T give you any money.”
I looked up at Mr. Sothea with tears in my eyes. Here he was, just a friend reaching out to me. I said thanks and headed for home.
|********** PART 3 **********
|I decided to take a shortcut home but as I passed the alley, a hand pulled me in. I was knocked to the ground and a shadow hovered over me. I began to scream but the same hand covered my mouth.
“Shut up or I’ll kill you!” I shut my mouth instantly. I didn’t want to die yet. In the moon’s reflection I got a good look of my attacker. It was a boy who looked a little bit older than me. His face and clothes were dirty but he had really good features so I could tell he was extremely good-looking, especially whenever he smiles. Remarkably, He’s got large forehead; everybody would think he’s kindness as well. But this was not a time to think about such things.
He held a table knife at my throat and said, “Give me all your money or I’ll kill you.”
I panicked but I knew what to do. I used the move I wanted to use on my step mom every time she pinned me down and hit me. I kicked him hard right into his family jewels. He gasped and fell to the floor, dropping the knife. I picked up my groceries and ran. I guess you can call me the dumbest person alive. I was afraid I had kicked the boy too hard and permanently damaged him. Besides, since my life is hell already, I didn’t want him to go through it too. So I turned back. When I came back to the alley, the boy was still lying on the floor. He was moaning softly. I lifted him up gently.
“Are you okay?” I asked. He shook his head no.
|********** PART 4 **********
|Sun Won stared at the girl who had just walked away. ‘She must be the nicest or dumbest person in this world,’ he thought. He began to stand up but had to use the wall for balance. That girl had kicked him a little too hard. Sun Won had just run away from home again. He had run away so many times that the alley was his second home. When he ran away he always stole his parents’ money. They were the richest people in all of Phnom Penh but they were also the most messed up family. His dad would have a lot of women with him and would betray a friend if it would bring him money. His mom, on the other hand, was an exact duplicate of his dad. She always had these young men around her and spends money like crazy. His parents were divorced and lived on opposite ends of Phnom Penh. ‘*Chhkout (crazy)* and bastard,’ thought Sun Won. When he ran away this time, he didn’t have the chance to steal any money from his dad. So he had no choice but to rob somebody.
When he saw the young girl walking out of the store, she seemed to be the perfect target. But things didn’t turn out as planned. Sun Won kept wondering why the girl gave him the money even though he could have killed her. Sun Won knew he couldn’t take the money because she was the first person in his messed up life that was nice to him because she wanted to be, not because she wanted something from him. He wanted to give the money back. When he gained some of his strength back, he began to chase her…
|********** PART 5 **********
|When I came home, I was greeted by the usual words. ‘Ugly wretch, wicked girl, free loader, etc.’ but luckily I made it through dinner fine. When dinner ended, my parents went to sleep leaving me with the dishes.
When I cleaned the table and washed the dishes. I also took out the trash and then suddenly I felt someone grab me from behind. My attacker turned me around to face him. It was the same boy I met in the alley. I began to panic.
“I gave you all my money already! What more do you want from me?” He raised a finger to his lips and tried to shush me. I felt one of my attacks coming on. I started to hyperventilate and couldn’t breathe. I was beginning to black out. Sun Won looked at the girl who looked like she was going to die.
|“Oh my God! Are you okay?” This time it was the girl’s turn to shake her head no. Then she collapsed in his arms. Sun Won didn’t know what to do but he had to save her life. He began to give her mouth to mouth. “Come on,” he whispered to her.
“Breathe. Don’t die on me.”
After a while she began coughing and opened her eyes. I opened my eyes and saw a blurry object heading towards me. Then I felt something soft pressing against my lips and I felt a gust of air. Then I realized the boy was giving me air. I couldn’t believe what was happening. I blushed and gently pushed him away.
“Thank you for saving me. I’m okay now.
I looked up at him. “No, it’s okay. Keep it. I think you need it or you wouldn’t have tried to rob me.
” He shook his head. “No. I just wanted to borrow it only. I don’t take charity. Well, goodbye.
Just as he walked away, I heard his stomach grumble. I bit my tongue so I wouldn’t laugh. Since he didn’t take charity, I said,
“Um, hey. I just made some food and I don’t know if it’s good or not. I need a guinea pig because I don’t want to serve it to my parents if it isn’t and besides, you did save my life. Sun Won looked at her. ‘Why is she being so nice to me?’ he thought. He knew she was just saying that because she heard him say he doesn’t want charity. Sun Won’s stomach was growling like crazy. He hasn’t eaten for 2 days already and the mention of food was killing him.
“Uh, okay. I guess I’ll be your guinea pig since I have nothing to do. ”He studied her face as she smiled at him. ‘She’s pretty,’ he thought as he smiled back.
|********** PART 6 **********
|I let the boy wait outside as I got some of the leftover for him. He finished it in less than a minute. Then he leaned back and sighed. Out of nowhere, he let out a burp. I had to giggle.
He looked at me and smiled. “Sorry about that.”
“It’s okay.” I hesitated before I asked him the next question. “Umm…so what’s your name?”
He glanced at me and then stared at the ground. I could tell he was debating to tell me his real name or not. I didn’t want him to feel obligated to telling me his name.
“It’s okay. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.
She stared back at him surprised too.
She nodded her head slowly and Sun Won can tell that she was confused. Sun Won felt that he could trust her and he wanted her to be his friend.
“My name is Pin Sun Won and you are?”
“Chan Lida, but call me Lida. It’s easier to remember” Then she gave him the sweetest smile. Sun Won felt his heart beat a little faster when she smiled at him. He blushed and looks away.
“13,” she replied. “And you Sun Wonee?”
He smiled when she called him that. “I’m 17,” he said turning back to look at her.
“Where is your parents’ Brother? You’re too young to be living in the streets”
He shrugged his shoulders. “I can take care of myself.” I gave him a doubting look because he was trying to pull that tough guy act on me.
“It’s okay though,” he told me. “I have a family. It’s just that things are bad at home so I’m just getting away from it for a while”.
“Do you have a place to stay tonight?”
Sun Won smiled. He knew she was lying so he would say yes. For the first time in his life, Sun Won felt warm inside because now he is wanted. He let out a sigh. “Ban na Lida, okay. You walked me into it. But just for tonight though.” She giggled and nodded.
|********** PART 7 **********
|Silently, I led Sun Won into my room. My room was small and luckily, it was far away from my parents so they can’t hear much. I let Sun Won have the bed while I take the floor. ‘Damn,’ I thought. ‘Why does the floor have to be so cold and hard?’ Sun Won stared down at Lida who was trying to sleep on the cold stone floor. He picked her up easily and lifted her onto the bed.
“Brother? What are you doing?” I whispered as my eyes grew wide.
“Do you trust me?” he asked.
I nodded my head slowly.
“Good,” he said. “This bed is small but it’ll fit both of us.”
My eyes grew wider at what Sun Won had just said. But I had just told him that I trust him. I couldn’t take my words back so I had no Choice but to sleep with him. We both got in my bed and slept side-by-side. I was so nervous, I couldn’t sleep. Sun Won, on the other hand, had no problem. He fell asleep instantly. I turned my head over to look at him. His face was so innocent like an angel and his smile looked so sweet when he was sleeping. Who would have thought he was such a devil when he’s awake and moving?
An hour had passed and it was 3’ in the morning. I still couldn’t sleep. Suddenly something weird HAPPENS. Sun Won turned his entire body around and did a 360, kicking me. “Ow!” I cried out but covered my mouth so my parents wouldn’t hear me. When he was done, he had this happy look on his face. At first I thought he was just playing with me but he really did do a 360 in his sleep. Suddenly he reached over and held me tight. My entire body went tense and rigid. I could feel Sun Won’s light breathing on my neck. I don’t know why but now that Sun Won was this close (practically laying on top of me) made me feel better. It’s probably because I’ve never been this close to a person in a long time. Soon I began to fall asleep too…
|********** PART 8 **********
|November 1, 1993
Sun Won opened his eyes and found himself laying partially on Lida’s body. He blushed and slowly moved away from her. Then he just lay near her watching her sleep. Suddenly it caught his eyes. The sleeves and pant legs of her pajamas were lifted up and he got a good look at her arms and legs. Dark purple bruises cover her entire body. There were several scars on her legs and arms too. Red lines run across her legs and it made Sun Won wince because it looked so painful. He didn’t want to disturb Lida but he was really curious. She turned over and Sun Won lifted the back of her shirt. It was even worse than her legs. Sun Won opened his mouth lightly in shock and touched her bare back delicately, fearing that he might hurt her. Lida began to stir. I rubbed my eyes and sat up. I saw Sun Won looking at me with this sad expression on his face.
“What’s wrong Brother?” I asked.
“Brother!” I yelled, turning back to Sun Won,
Goodbye Sun Wonee,” I said to him with tears in my eyes. Sun Won remained silent the whole time as he left her room. But he didn’t leave though. He sat on the branch of her tree and looked through her window. He couldn’t hear what Lida and her mom were talking about but he saw it. He saw Lida’s mom bring out a small wooden stick and whack Lida with it several times.
Sun Won couldn’t take it anymore. He busted back into Lida’s room.
|********** PART 9 **********
|I looked up at my stepmother in pain.
“I’m sorry mom. I didn’t know we’re supposed to have guests today.”
She glared at me with cold hatred in her eyes.
“Lida, are you okay?”
My step mom twisted her face in hate. “I knew you were trouble all this time Lida.
How dare you bring this boy home? Wait until I tell your father about this!”
Sun Won grabbed my step mom’s arm to stop her. “You do that and I’ll have you fired!” I stared at Sun Won dumbfounded.
‘What is he talking about?’
“If you’re his son, then how come you’re so filthy?”
’ Then she said, “Come on then, boy. Let’s go.”
|********** PART 10 **********
|All three of us came downstairs together. Sun Won had to help me down because my legs were too weak to support me. Sun Won helped me sit on the couch and he faced the strange man before me. Mr. Pin glared at Sun Won.
“Hi dad,” said Sun Won.
“Where the hell have you been Sun Won?” shouted Mr. Pin.
“Look dad, shut up about it already and we’ll talk about it at home.” ‘Sure,’ I thought. ‘I could never talk to my parents like that.’
Mr. Pin shuts up. “Okay son, we’ll talk about it at home.” Then Sun Won gestured his hand at my entire family. “The Chans were nice enough to let me stay at their house. You owe them dad.”
My step mom got so excited. “Thank you Mr. Pin!”
Sun Won brushed his dad’s hand ff his shoulder. “Later dad. I’ll be home in an hour.”
“Listen here,” he said as he sat down next to me. “I can get you hired and fired just like that.” And he snapped his fingers.
“All I want is for you two do not touch Lida anymore. If I see another bruise on her, you know the consequences. Sun Won held my hand the entire time he spoke with my parents. I felt strange warmth going through me and I knew that right then and there that I was falling in love with Pin Sun Won. My dad remained quiet while my stepmother talked. “Of course Sun Won.”
Sun Won rolled his eyes. “Okay, and I’ll make sure you keep your promise.” Then Sun Won turned to face me. “Come on, let’s go.”
“What?” I asked confused.
|********** PART 11 **********
|Sun Won continued holding my hand and never once did he let it go. The walk to his house took us 15 minutes and I was enjoying every minute of it. When we reached his house, Sun Won let out a sigh.
“Lida,” he said softly. “Just stay quiet and let me do the talking okay?” I nodded my head and we entered his house. His house was huge! I felt as though I’m a peasant walking through a castle. He even had a few maids and butlers who attended us. Sun Won led me to his room. It was nice and clean but there were a lot of holes all around his walls. I sat down on his bed as he went into the bathroom to take a quick shower. When he was done, he came out and sat next to me, holding my hand. I really am in love.
“Sun Won, how come your walls have a lot of holes?” He shrugged his shoulders and I massaged it for him. As he relaxed,
“Come on,” he said. He lifted me up on his back and gave me a piggy back ride downstairs. He smelled so good now that he’s clean and fresh. His dad was waiting for him in the den. I waited outside while Sun Won came into face his dad. Sun Won came in, uninterested in what his dad had to say.
“What is it dad?”
” Sun Won smirked. “Sure you’re worried. That’s why you’re out with those hoes and mom’s out with those morons. It’s because I’m your only son. You’re just scared that when grandpa passes away he won’t put our family on the will.”
His father got angry. “Well do you want it to end up on your uncle’s side?” Sun Won gave his dad a look that showed he didn’t care. His dad continued talking. “Since I managed to have a son and my brother has no kids, I have the advantage. Son, listen to me. You know you’re my heir. All my wealth will be passing down to you.”
Sun Won looked at his dad disgusted. “All you care about is money! You don’t care about me!” he yelled as he stormed out of the den. Sun Won slammed the door open and grabbed my hand. “Come on, let’s go.”
|********** PART 12 **********
|I was confused and didn’t know what had happened. Sun Won held my hand and took me to the beach near his house. On the sand there were these 2 huge rocks. Sun Won led me over there. He lifted me up and we sat side by side. We remained silent until Sun Won took a deep breath of the ocean air.
“I love this place, don’t you?” he said to me smiling. I returned his smile and held onto his hand tighter.
“Oh…” I said softly.
“Perfect” he said.
“Yup,” I answered, smiling. Sun Won smiled back. ‘I love you….’ I felt my heart my heart filled with a bubble of love but then Sun Won continued talking.” as a Brother.” My bubble busted. This was not what I had expected him to say. I stared at Sun Won with wide eyes. I knew it was pretty forward of me but I had to ask. “Why…your….sister?” I managed to stutter out. Sun Won looked back at me with his puppyish eyes and smiled. He nodded his head gently. Have I been reading all his signs wrong?
“Good,” he said. Sun Won nodded and reached into his pocket. He pulled out a small silver knife. I stared at him with wide eyes.
He smiled at me. “Good. Lower the back of your shirt.” Sun Won pulled the back of my shirt down. Then he used that knife to cut me.
“Ow!” I screamed in pain but he continued anyways. He carved a small ‘S’ onto my shoulder blade. My back was bleeding and he bandaged it for me. Then he handed the knife to me.
“Go ahead. Don’t worry, I can stand the pain.”
|********** PART 13 **********
|Years had pass and I’m still with Sun Won. I didn’t think it was possible but I grew more and more in love with Sun Won everyday. We would do a lot of stuff together and we never had any fights. We argue, but it never came to the point where we would get really mad at each other and he usually let me have it my way.
Seng Virak was Sun Won’s other friend and he hangs out with us a lot too. Virak is a little younger than me and is really nice. He has this really cute smile that when he smiles, you can’t help but smile back. I called him ‘Pros saart.’ His family life also isn’t good. His mom has a serious sickness and his dad had passed away when he was young. So usually it was the three of us together. My home life is a lot better thanks to Sun Won. My step mom didn’t dare to touch me anymore and it’s still the same between me and my dad. We don’t talk much. Sun Won’s parents like me a lot too. It’s because when they tell Sun Won to do something and he wouldn’t do it. They would come to me. I’m kind of like their pawn. Life was heaven for me until it completely shattered on day. It started out with good news but who would have known it would end up in tragedy?
March 20, 1996
“What?” I asked calmly.
“Really?” I asked excitedly? “How did this happen?”
“Of course he agreed,” she answered. My breathing increased so I took out my respirator. After I calmed down, my step mom took me into her room and told me all about the arrangements. Meanwhile back at the Pin mansion…
“The only two people grandpa will give the business to is me or uncle. He won’t give it to you because you’ll spend it all on those *Chhkout* I bet all your money is gone now.”
“You’re so pathetic dad.” He sighed. Living with Lida taught him compassion and sympathy for people. “I’ll see what I can do dad.” He went into his room. Just then his cellular phone rang. He picked it up, thinking it was Lida. Using his sexy voice, he whispered, “Hi Lida.” A weird high-pitched giggle came from the other end of the line.
“Ooh…”said the voice. “Hi to you too sexy.”
“Bye.” Sun Won clicked off his phone. Sun Won’s dad didn’t know it but his grandpa had given him $10 million in advance, along with hotel ownerships in Korea and Phnom Penh as his wedding gift. He planned to leave his dad $5 million and live off the rest with Lida and Virak. He smiled thinking about how he would get away from everything and just be with the one he loved the most, Lida.
|********** PART 14 **********
|Back at home I was so excited I couldn’t sleep. I know I was still young to be thinking about marriage but I know Sun Won is the only guy for me. I held my teddy bear close as thoughts of Sun Won drifted me to sleep. It was midnight now. Sun Won snuck out of his house quietly without making a noise. He carried his backpack full of money on his back. He planned to go to Lida’s house to grab her and leave. Then it would be just him, Lida, and Virak leaving together. He was almost to Lida’s house when he realized that he was being followed. It was his uncle’s men. They came to get rid of him. Sun Won was smart. He knew the streets too well. He made it through the alley and those men end up losing him. But when Sun Won reached Lida’s house, about 10 men had surrounded her house. They all saw him approaching. Sun Won began to ran as they chased him. He made it to the dock. He saw Virak on the boat.
“Won! Hurry! The boat is leaving!” Sun Won threw his bag onto the boat first and made a high jump. He landed safely onto the boat. His uncle’s men couldn’t chase him anymore. Sun Won and Virak started cheering until Sun Won realized what was missing. Lida. He had left her. Sun Won fell to his knees. “What’s wrong?” asked Virak.
“Lida! We left her! We have to go back!” yelled Sun Won.
“We can’t. If we go back, we’ll just get killed and we’ll be putting Lida’s life in danger too.” Sun Won moved away from Virak, knowing that the darkness will cover his face. And for the first time in his life, Sun Won cried.
|********** PART 15 **********
|I woke up the next morning with this strange feeling inside me. I don’t know why but I find it disturbing. Then I remembered that Sun Won and I, are going to get married soon, it subsided. When I went downstairs, my step mom was holding that wooden stick I haven’t seen in years.
I began to panic. She whacked me with it. I fell down surprised. “Where’s Sun Won?” she screamed at me. I was so confused and surprised I didn’t know what she was talking about. She kept hitting me and telling me to answer her. But how can I answer when I don’t even know myself? Then something unusual happened. My dad grabbed the stick away from my step mom.
“Stop hitting her! Can’t you tell that she can’t think straight through all that pain?” My step mom was shocked and she kept her mouth shut because my dad never did that to her before. “Lida,”
“He left?” I asked blankly.
“How can he leave me?” I asked standing up. My step mom’s next words hit me hard and cold like ice.
“He probably left because he didn’t want to marry you or he love some one else.” I sunk to my knees and fell to the floor. I began to sob to myself. My parents left the room, leaving me alone. ‘How can you leave me without telling me any reason, Sun Won? Were all those promises of taking care of me lies?’ I loved Sun Won so much. All I ever wanted is to be with him, he is my first love and first man in my life, even if he did only consider me as a sister. I needed to know why he left. Being with him all this time, I knew where he went. I’ll search all of Korea if I had to…
|One year later…
During this year, my life of hell had return, I did miss him so bad, I cried every night and I couldn’t sleep. I often stayed up late. I always asked myself ‘tell me why, have I done something wrong? why did you play me around, how come you hurt me so? Only god knew how much I love you’ I managed to save up enough money for a ticket to Korea and money to spend. I had to work odd hours so my step mom wouldn’t find out or she’ll take the money from me. I also had to sell some of Sun Won’s gifts to me. He was a really generous brother who would buy me a lot of expensive clothes, jewelry, perfume, and just about anything that I wanted. I figured he wouldn’t mind because they’re just material possessions. They were a big help because I managed to trade them in for a lot of money.
|July 25, 1997
I finally had enough money to leave. It took me a while to go because I knew chances are low of finding Sun Won right away. I needed extra money for my search and I had to pay double for a fake I.D. You could say that I have almost everything planned out. I got a pretty good amount so I planned on leaving today.
It’s been a little over a year since Sun Won left me with no reason or explanation. I’ve gotten so much thinner because I couldn’t eat or sleep and I miss him so much. The problem I still had facing me were my parents. I know they were not going to let me leave. I was only 17. Damn. Still a minor. This year had been total hell for me and I can’t stand another year of it. I had to leave and I had a plan. I was going to fake my death. It was all so perfect. My family had to go out to a Kampong Som (Sihanouk ville) with Mr. Pin. He still keeps in touch with us. I guess it’s because he thinks I might know where Sun Won is.
Truth is, I have no idea except I know Sun Won’s somewhere in Korea. I planned to fake a drowning. Because of my heart failure, it helped me close off my air circulation for up to 4 minutes. This time I am using it to let my family think that I have drowned and the tides drifted my body to sea so I will never be found… But before I go I had to say goodbye to my father. I hugged him hard. He looked at me surprised.
“What was that for?” he asked.
” My dad had tears in his eyes. “I’m so sorry Lida. I’m so worthless as your father.”
“No you’re not but you have to do what’s right dad. Don’t let anyone stop you and stop putting yourself down.”
“I’m going for a swim okay?” He nodded his head and watched me head toward the ocean. The plan went perfect. I stayed underwater for a while and swam myself to the other side of the beach where they couldn’t see me. All my belongings were there. I got on the dock and sailed to the Kampong Som port leaving Phnom Penh forever…
|********** PART 16 **********
August 15, 1997
Sun Won traced the ‘L’ scar on his back. ‘Damn,’ he thought. ‘I miss Lida so much.’ He sent out one of his men to retrieve news about her and if they could, get her here to him in Korea.
Sun Won had it all Money and power. The only thing that was missing was Lida. So much had happened to Sun Won as he remembered back. Sun Won and Virak made it to Seoul, Korea. With Sun Won’s leadership skills and Virak’s smooth talking, they end up getting a lot of businesses and putting others of out business. Money was not enough for Sun Won. He needed power so he created Bong thom, where he was the leader and Virak was his 2nd-in command. He and Virak managed to eliminate the group Quicksilver on their own and gained the respect and loyalty of the two members Kim Jae Duc and Lee Jae Sunn.
Along the way, they found Ko Sun Yong and Jang Su Won wandering the streets. Sun Yong proved to be a genius and Su Won was handy in finding information. Sun Won knew they were enough. They had hundreds of men under them but Bong thom were the main leaders with Sun Won as the head. They committed a lot of crimes but no evidence was ever found to convict them. Just then there was a knock on his door, interrupting his thoughts.
“Come in,” said Sun Won.
Su Won looked down and hesitated to reply. “I’m afraid it’s bad news.”
“Chan Lida is dead. She drowned while she was swimming in the ocean. Her body has not been found and is still missing.”
“Lida!” Sun Won screamed out of his window in pain. His cries echoed throughout the city of Seoul.
|********** PART 17 **********
|I finally made it to Chejudo, Korea. I didn’t know where to look for Sun Won so anywhere was fine. I was never a lucky person. I couldn’t find any signs of Sun Won there so I traveled to Inchun City. My search for Sun Won continued for another year. During that time I had traveled to many cities like Guam, Pusan, etc. It must have been a gift from God because one day my search was over…
November 21, 1998
‘Bong thom is to open a conference broadcasting live on Channel 6 today’ I rolled my eyes. Not them again. They were the notorious mafia lead by Lonely man Pin. I shuddered. I can’t believe the leader has the same last name as my beloved Sun Won. Actually 6 Bong thom guys was composed of 6 leaders. They committed a lot of crimes and were always challenging the authorities. They had a lot of power and no one could take their pictures without their consent but a lot of people know what they look like. I didn’t care. I was too busy looking for Sun Won to notice them. A worker with me named Chea Sokunthea came in. “Hey,” she said, patting me lightly on the knee. “On break?” I took a sip and nodded.
“Me too,” she said smiling. I smiled back at her. So kunthea was actually one of the nicest, kindness, and beautiful girl at the hotel. She was younger than me 3 years old. Most of them were cold and just worried about how much tips they can get. Sokunthea picked up the TV remote and turned to Channel 6.
“Hey Lida, there’s supposed to be showing 6 Bong thom guys today. Wonder what they look like. I nodded and watched with her. When the clock struck 9, I felt my heart had stopped and it was not from my heart failure either. I stared at the face that was giving a *Chhkout* smile to the camera. Sun Won. Slowly the camera pulled out revealing the other 5 members. I recognized Virak. He and Sun Won looked completely different but I still recognized them. Sun Won had his hair dyed completely blonde while Virak’s was streaked.
Sokunthea and I watched them in silence as they began to talk. Sun Won and the others introduced themselves. Then the camera showed directly at Sun Won. To most people he would look like an evil gang leader but in my eyes he was a beautiful angel. If it was ever possible, Sun Won was even finer than before.
“Lida, are you okay?” asked SoKunthea, as she waved a hand in front of my face.
“That’s Lonely man Pin,” she answered me. I stared at Sun Won some more. He had changed his name and so did Virak. No wonder I couldn’t find them. Sokunthea caught me staring so she smiled at me.
“The leader is cute huh?”
I pulled a finger to my lips. “Shh…let’s listen to what they have to say…”
Sun Won began talking. “This is Bong thom speaking to all you losers out there watching us. We just want to say that we’re open to hire new ‘employees’. We usually travel around to our many hotels but you’ll find us if you have the right connections. Also words to the police of Korea. Why are you picking on us? “ Sun Won asked sarcastically. “We’re good, law-abiding citizens.” Sun Won folded his hands together and gave a little bow. Then all of the Bong thom leaders started laughing.
“Oh… my goodness! Look at him!” yelled Sokunthea and pointed to Virak on the T. V. screen. “Look at that stupid smile and that perverted laugh. hahaha…” So kunthea made a poor impression of Virak’s laugh and it made me laugh. hahaha, I thought. Virak would kill her if he knew she made fun of his trademark smile. The show ended a little too soon for me but Sun Won did say he was visiting many hotels and mine is the biggest one. He has to come here. I went back to work and waited for him to come.
********** PART 18 **********
Sun Won entered the main doors of the Chan Sunway Hotel and headed towards the lobby. He let out a sigh. When in the hotel brought back to him a lot of memories. He remembered how he would take Lida to the hotels to trash it or slide down the long stairway banisters. But those carefree days are over. His only love had died and he no longer has the heart to love anyone else. Ever since the news of Lida’s death, Sun Won began to develop a passion for anything he thinks is related to her. Things like her hairbrush, the same type of lip gloss she uses, her little respirator, etc. There are times when he had to give her mouth to mouth if the respirator wasn’t around. Sun Won smiled remembering that she had told him that he was her first kiss.
Lida never went out with any guys so it made him really happy but he also found it very strange and he often suspected her in the wrong way. He didn’t want to give her any ideas about dating other guys so he never asked. Sun Won had changed his name to Lonely man. It’s to symbolize that Sun Won died with Lida and Lonely man replaced him. He chose the name Lonely man because of Lida’s initial ‘L’ and if anyone asks, the ‘L’ stands for Lonely man. Virak wanted to change his name to Micky but Sun Won wouldn’t let him. Sun Won only allowed him to change it if it had the letter ‘L’ so Virak ended up changing it to Lovely man instead.
“Hey, Brother! Over here!” shouted Virak. Sun Won looked over at his five friends. He walked over to them and was surprised at what he saw.
“Come on Brother,” said Jae Duc. “Lighten up.”
Sun Won rolled his eyes and then he saw two girls wrap their arms around him. He smiled. “Yeah, I guess.” “Alright!” they all shouted. They like it when Sun Won is in a good mood. From where I was standing, I felt as though someone had stabbed me with a knife. Sun Won looked so happy with those 2 girls sitting on both sides of his lap. I stared at my reflection in the hotel mirror. Big, glassy eyes, pale skin, and waist-length black hair. I looked kind of like a ghost. Not much to look at, I thought sighing sadly. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder and I slowly turned around.
********** PART 19 **********
“What are you looking at?” asked SoKunthea.
“I don’t know what I want for dinner, but you want to be my dessert?”
“Don’t talk to my friend like that,” he said in a low threatening voice. “Or else I’ll have you fired.” Sun Won’s glare made Sokunthea move back a little bit but she answered back anyways.
********** PART 20 **********
Sun Won stared at the girl who was talking to SoKunthea. ‘She looks like Lida,’ he thought. ‘But can’t be.’
“You like my waitress too?” asked Virak, pouting.
“No…” said Virak slowly. “That girl’s hair is much longer and Lida has a nicer body. That chick looks like a stick.”
Hmm…if my hair is short and put into a cap, I wear sunglasses more, darken my skin with make-up, and lower my voice…I can pass for a guy. So I did it. Within an hour, I had transformed myself into a guy. I checked myself over. As a guy, I didn’t look too bad. I smoothed out my new short hair and tucked it into a cap. Guys wear earrings too so I didn’t have to worry about my earring holes. I wore a couple of T-shirts under my flannel and 2 pairs of boxers under my baggy jeans so I would fill out more and wouldn’t look so scrawny. I checked my make-up, making sure I was well-covered. I put my sunglasses on. Perfect, I thought. Now all I have to do is, having to pass the test to join the gang.
********** PART 21 **********
“Yes? What do you want little man?”
I moved his hand for him. “No. I’m 18 and I’m not 5’, I’m 5’3.” That made all the other members laughs, except Sun Won. I looked at him curiously and realized he was checking me out. Oh no, I thought. Please don’t recognize me. Sun Won held up his hand for the others to stop laughing.
“Hey, if he wants a chance, then we’ll give it to him.” Then he turned to face me. I felt my heart thumping loud and prayed he couldn’t hear it. He placed his hand on my shoulder. Dang, he smells good, I thought as I tried to suppress a smile.
“Look kid,” said Sun Won to me. “You have to be jumped in to join. These 2 guys (pointing to Jae Sunn and Jae Duc) will kick the crap out of you for 5 minutes. If you’re still standing, you’re in.” I nodded my head. I knew I had to last because I’m doing it all for Sun Won. I stood there as Jae Duc and Jae Sunn began to hit me. Jae Sunn threw the first punch and it gave me instant pain. He’s even stronger than my step mom, I thought. Jae Duc kicked me and I was knocked to the ground but I kept pulling myself up. Sun Won looked at the helpless boy who was struggling to stand up. He doesn’t understand why but when he looks at the boy, images of Lida replaced him. Right now in his eyes, it looked like it was Lida being beaten up by Jae Sunn and Jae Duc. He couldn’t help it.
“Stay down!” he yelled to the boy. Everyone stared at Sun Won. Both Jae Sunn and Jae Duc stopped hitting the boy because they were surprised Sun Won was being nice out of nowhere. I heard Sun Won yelling for me to stay down. My ears listened but my legs wouldn’t. I refused to stay down. No matter how many times they hit me or how hard, I managed to get up. Finally 5 minutes was over and I was still standing.
“Yes, you’re in.” he said patting my shoulder. I smiled and fainted into his arms. Sun Won held the boy, surprised. He realized the boy had fainted. Usually he would have let go if someone fainted on him, but this time he held on tight. The other 5 Bong thom members looked and the 2 new recruits looked at Sun Won with queried eyes.
********** Part 22 **********
Slowly I began to regain my consciousness and I woke up. I looked around and realized I was in the biggest room in the Chan Sunway Hotel. The Presidential Suite. ‘What am I doing in here?’ I asked myself. Then suddenly the chair in front of me spun around. Sun Won was sitting in it. I stared at him with wide eyes. I started to panic because I was all alone with him in the room. Sun Won gave me a sideways glance. “You okay?” he asked. I nodded my head. Sun Won got up out of his seat and walked towards me. He sat down on the bed next to me and looked at me straight in the eyes.
“So what’s your name?” he asked.
“What did you say your name was?”
“There’s a meeting tomorrow. Be there okay?” I looked at Sun Won with his back facing me. It had only been 2 years but I felt as though I couldn’t read what was going on in his mind anymore. I let out a sigh myself.
“Sun Won, where do we meet later tomorrow?” The call of his real name made Sun Won suddenly look up. He ran over to where Liday was sitting and grabbed him by his shoulders.
“How do you know my real Cambodian name? No one knows me by that. Everyone calls me Lonely man.” Oh no, I thought. I had completely forgotten that Sun Won had changed his name to Lonely man but I thought fast. “I didn’t know your name as Sun Won. All I said was,
“We’ll meet in the main dining room tomorrow,” Sun Won told Liday. He nodded his head and left. Sun Won walked out to the balcony and looked up at the sky. ‘I love you Lida, that’s why it hurts so much that you’re not here.’ But the real Lida had left before she could have heard those words.
********** PART 23 **********
Meanwhile back in the hotel lobby…
“Yeah,” said Jae Duc.
“Ow…that must have hurt,” said Jae Duc, as he hugged himself. Jae Sunn smacked him on the head for interrupting again.
“Dang, ain’t he a Romeo?” said Jae Duc, laughing.
“How romantic,” whispered Jae Duc.
Brother Lonely man didn’t like his dad and there was this feud in their family on who gets the grandpa’s inheritance. Brother Lonely man got it, of course, and he took it all and left Phnom Penh. He took me and he was planning on taking Lida too. When he went to her house though, his uncle’s men were guarding the place and he couldn’t take her. He ended up leaving Phnom Penh without saying goodbye to Lida.” All of them remained silent. Then Su Won spoke.
“Last year Brother sent me out to get some news on Chan Lida. She had died drowning.”
********** PART 24 **********
The others looked up surprised. Jae Sunn smacked Jae Duc on his head.
November 23, 1998
“Uh, Brother. You want to take Liday along?”
********** PART 25 **********
I followed the Black Bong thom to a dark alley. I was surprised Sun Won wanted to take me along, considering I was one of the weakest members. I thought I would get to work with the White Bong thom in businesses.
My eyes widened as I held the cold metal. Please don’t let me use it, I prayed silently. Sun Won walked over to Liday. “Okay, the co leaders of Black Dragons are meeting around here. You’ll recognize them by the dragon tattoos on their arms. If you see them, just shoot them as they come out.” “But brother Lonely man, I-“ but my words were cut off the sound of gunshots. POW
The young boy was whimpering. I felt sorry for him. “Please don’t kill me. My leader is Pin Tae Won.”
“That bastard,” said Sun Won. “He’s dead and he still has someone after me.” When Sun Won wasn’t looking, the Black Dragon boy had pulled out a knife, ready to stab Sun Won. I didn’t have time to think so I reacted instantly. I shot the boy. He fell back in pain but managed to get up and run away. Sun Won looked at me surprised. He gave me a smile. “Good job, Liday,” he said walking over to me and patted me on the back. I was appalled at what I had done. I couldn’t answer him so I just handed him back the gun. Just then Jae Sunn and Jae Duc came back to us.
“Got them all Brother,” said Jae Sunn smiling as he did fancy handwork with his gun.
********** PART 26 **********
A few months later…
April 29, 1999
“Damn it Brother! What should we do?” asked Jae Sunn.
“I don’t believe this!” said Sun Won furiously. “I, Lonely man Pin, of Bong thom have to hide down here in this *Chhkout*roach motel like I’m a dog or something!”
“At least it’s king size.” I nodded my head. “It’ll be tight but we’ll all have to try and fit in.” Soon it was Jae Sunn, Jae Duc, Sun Won, me, Virak, Sun Yong, and Su Won laying down side by side uncomfortably on the bed. We were laying down one by one and the others looked at me strangely as I ran to be the next person who lay near Sun Won. Soon everyone fell asleep except me. I made sure everyone was asleep before I made my move. I bent over to kiss Sun Won lightly on the lips. Then I laid my head down on his chest to hear his heart beat. I sighed contentedly and I’d looked at his face, I’d really love him so much honey. Then suddenly I felt Sun Won’s leg twitch. Oh no. I knew what he was about to do. His 360. I placed my entire body on top of his because I didn’t want to get kicked. As Sun Won did his 360, he kicked everyone except me off the bed. As always when Sun Won was done, he had a huge smile on his face. Then he held onto me tightly. I was overwhelmed with happiness. The others must have been exhausted because none of them woke up except Jae Duc. He opened his eyes sleepily and said,
********** PART 27 **********
“Gross! How the hell did I end up down here?” Sun Won shrugged his shoulders. Then Jae Duc woke up. “Damn, my butt hurts. It feels like someone kicked it last night.”
“How come you didn’t fall off Liday?” asked Su Yong.
“Disperse!” yelled Sun Won and we all ran our separate ways. Black Dragons chased after each one of us. I lost the Black Dragon member that was chasing me but I didn’t want to go back the hotel room without Sun Won so I turned back to get him. When I found Sun Won, he was backed up against the wall by a Black Dragon. It was the leader, Tae Won. He was telling Sun Won to bow down and BEGS for mercy but Sun Won ended up spitting in his face. Tae Won got angry and pulled the knife back to stab Sun Won in his throat. I ran as fast as I could and knocked Tae Won down. He dropped the knife and fell to the floor with me. As he fell, he used the handled of the knife to knock Sun Won unconscious. Tae Won got up glaring at me.
“Oh you must be the gay Bong thom member I’ve heard so much about,” said Tae Won laughing.
********** PART 28 **********
I took Sun Won back to his room while Sokunthea took Virak back to his. I washed Sun Won’s cuts and nursed his wounds. When he was bandaged, I sat down on the chair next to his bed. Then suddenly, I couldn’t breathe. One of my attacks is coming on and I didn’t have my respirator with me. My heart was aching so painfully that I was gasping in pain. But then I remembered Sun Won had a respirator. I searched his pockets and sure enough, there it was. I started pumping it quickly and air entered my lungs. My vision cleared and I began to breathe easier. Then I put it back into his pocket. My touch made Sun Won stir. He began to wake up. He looked at me.
“I came back to look for you because I was worried you might be in danger.” I saw Sun Won look at me awkwardly and inched himself away from me. He thinks I’m gay, I thought.
********** PART 29 **********
Later that evening Sun Won posted a note on my door telling me to meet him. It was 8 p.m. and I knocked the door to his room.
“Follow me,” he ordered. He left the room and I followed him. He took me to the beach that was near our hotel. Then he walked over to a spot where there were two rocks side by side. I caught my breath. This looks exactly like our spot in Phnom Penh, I thought.
“Come here and sit next to me, Liday,” said Sun Won to me, patting the rock next to him. I sat down near him and closed my eyes as I breathed in the salty sea air. Sun Won began to study Liday. ‘He looks like Lida in a way,’ he thought. ‘Could he be Lida in another form?’ Sun Won didn’t believe in reincarnation but Liday was too much like Lida for him. He wanted to see if somehow Liday was Lida so he had to test him. “Liday, you want to hear a story?”
“Sure,” said Liday eagerly. Sun Won smiled as he told his story.
“Well what do you think?” Sun Won asked him.
“Yes, poor girl,” said Sun Won sadly.
“Why is it perfect?” I asked him. This time I wished he would tell me the significance of the 3-skip.
“So did the rich boy ever really love his sister?” I asked Sun Won. Sun Won looked at me.
“Actually, Liday, the rich boy loved his sister the first day he met her but he’s such a weak person. He never could admit his feelings for her and just waited for her to say that she loves him first.” Sun Won turned around and saw that Liday had left. ‘Oh well,’ he thought as he headed back to the hotel.
********** PART 30 ***********
Since some of you wanted to hear more about Virak and SoKunthea, this chapter is a little side story.
“How did I make it back here?” he asked himself. Then he realized he was wearing nothing but his boxers. His bathroom door suddenly opened and out came SoKunthea.
“It’s too late for that. I’ve seen it all already,” she told him as she yanked the blanket away. Virak crossed his arms over his chest.
“There,” she said.
“Yeah? What is it?” he yelled.
********** PART 31 **********
“Order Bong thom!” yelled Sun Won.
“I want a woman,” I told them.
“SoKunthea.” Virak grabbed me by the collar of my shirt.
“So Sokunthea now belongs to my little brother Liday. Anyone from Bong thom who touches her, the penalty is death.” Su Won and Sun Yong had to hold Virak back from attacking me.
“Oh.” Sokunthea stared at the floor. “I wonder if Mr. Lovely man really likes me.”
********** PART 32 **********
Slowly I began to open my eyes. I closed them instantly because the light reflecting me was so bright. Am I on the other side? I wondered. I managed to make my eyes open. I found myself strapped to a pulse racer machine and an IV fluid was hooked up to me. I started to look around my room. I was in a hospital and I saw that my door was open slightly ajar. Then I heard 2 voices talking and I began to eavesdrop.
A few months later…
********** PART 33 **********
June 15, 1999
“Brother? Are you hungry? I brought you some food.” Sun Won turned around to see who it was. It was Liday.
“Brother!” I said surprised. “What are you doing here?” I caught Sun Won looking down at my shirt. I had buttoned it all wrong and a great deal of my body was showing. Oh hell, I thought.
“How could you do this to me Sun Won?” I asked him screaming. “Get out! Get out!” I started to push him out the door. Sun Won was in shock. Lida, he thought. He grabbed her arms as she pushed him out.
“Lida, don’t! Is it really you?” I glared at him. As if he knew, Sun Won took off his jacket and puts it around my shoulders. I zipped it up, covering myself.
“That’s the only way I could do to be with you. Join Bong thom.” Sun Won stared at Lida as she continued talking.
"-I thought that we could be together like we were….sister and brother in Phnom Penh. But obviously, I was wrong. You had all those girls around you that you’ve completely forgotten about me.” Sun Won felt his heart shatter into a million pieces. Each one of Lida’s words stabbed him like a knife.
“Lida, you don’t understand. I-“
“Lida!” he yelled as he chased her out of the hotel.
” Sokunthea stumbled back and Virak caught her. ‘Oh no, poor Lida,’ she thought. She turned around to see Virak looking at her sadly. Sokunthea moved close to him and held onto him tight. Neither one of them let’s go…
********** PART 34 **********
June 16, 1999
“Looking for someone?” he asked.
“Lida?” Sun Won whispered as he approached the person. It was a Black Dragon member. He grabbed a hold of Sun Won around the neck and began shooting Sun Won continually in the stomach. I looked out from where I was hiding when I heard gunshots. “Sun Won!” I screamed as I ran out from where I hid. My scream threw the Black Dragon member off guard. Seeing his chance, Sun Won grabbed the gun from him and shot him in the head. He fell to the floor dead. Tae Won started to run away but Sun Won aimed a shot directly at his heart. Tae Won fell down dead too. Sun Won looked at me and then collapsed to the cold ground. He wasn’t able to hold on any longer. Rain began to pour.
“Sun Won!” I screamed, shaking him. He was still breathing but barely. I lifted Sun Won up on my back and
“He was shot 4 times in the stomach region. As you know, a person needs at least one kidney to survive but both of his are destroyed. Unless we can find a donor, he’ll have to die.”
“I understand. Please let’s have the operation now.” They tested me and luckily I was compatible with Sun Won. Six hours later the surgery was completed. It’s a miracle that I’m still alive. I knew not for long though. I woke up finding myself in a hospital bed with Sun Won on a bed next to me. He was still in a coma. I got out of bed and went near him. I stroked his hair gently as I bent down to kiss him.
********** PART 35 **********
Sun Won began to wake up. He looked around and realized he was in a hospital room. Slowly his door began to open and the rest of Bong thom entered his room.
“I’m okay now.” Jae Sunn walked over to his bedside.
“Thanks for saving me Doc.”
********** Part 36 **********
June 17, 1999
I felt weaker and my pen fell from my fingers. I stopped my story right there. Truth is, I didn’t know how to end it so I might as well leave it unfinished. I took off my cap and clothes. I was wearing a long white flowing dress underneath. It was the kind I always wanted to wear when I thought I was going to marry Sun Won. My hair had grown out a little bit. It grazed my chin. I started to put on some light make up and combed my hair. I don’t know why I’m getting dressed up for but I knew I wanted to die looking like Chan Lida, and not Liday.I looked at my reflection again. At least I look like a girl now, I thought with a little laugh. When I was done, I leaned giant the hard rock and wrapped my arms around it, pretending it was Sun Won. Then I heard a voice yelling out my name.
“Lida!” I recognized the voice. Sun Won. I smiled, knowing at least he’ll be the last person I’ll see before I go. Sun Won looked around the beach and saw a figure in a white dress. ‘Lida,’ he thought as he ran towards her. It was Lida. He lifted her into his arms and onto his lap as he sat down on the rocks.
All of my energy seemed to have been drained as I forced myself to open my eyes. My face felt wet but it wasn’t from my tears and it wasn’t raining either. My vision was kind of blurred and I couldn’t see Sun Won too well. I reached up to touch his face. It was wet.
“Sun Won,” I whispered to him.
“I didn’t mean to leave you Lida,” answered Sun Won, his voice shaking.
“I couldn’t take my dad anymore. My grandpa had given me his inheritance and I planned on taking you and Virak with me. I didn’t tell you about it because I was afraid you wouldn’t leave your family for me. When I came to your house to get you, my uncle’s men were there waiting for me and chased me to the docks. I escaped but I wanted to go back but couldn’t. I could have put your life in danger. This isn’t the first time I’ve cried Lida. I cried when I knew I was going to be separated from you.” Despite the pain, I managed to smile. Sun Won didn’t want to leave me, I thought.
“Look Sun Wonee, I’m wearing the dress I always wanted to wear if we had gotten married.” Sun Won looked at me.
“Sun Wonee, do you love me? I mean romantically, and not as your sister.” Sun Won looked down at Lida. She was beautiful. His heart ached when he saw how pale she was. He realized she never did know that he had loved her all along.
“I loved you since the first day we met. I loved you then and I had never stopped loving you.” He bent down to kiss her. My heart was deepened to a warm bliss. Sun Won said he loved me, I told myself as I felt him kiss me. Then a cold realization washed over me but I didn’t really care. I always thought that I was hurt when I didn’t receive Sun Won’s love. Instead, I found out my pain came from when I didn’t give Sun Won enough love. I haven’t told Sun Won I loved him yet.
“Sun Won,” I said to him as he looked down at me. “Thank you for making my dream comes true by saying that you love me. I know you’re lying and just saying it to repay me but you didn’t have to. I did it all because I-I-“ I was losing my voice. Not now, please, I prayed as tears fell down my face. I need to tell him before I go. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the white marble stone Sun Won had given to me when I WAS LIDAY. I pointed towards the ocean to make Sun Won look. I threw the stone with all my remaining strength. It skipped 3 times.
“Lida!” he screamed in pain. He held onto her tightly, burying his face into her neck. He was crying so loudly and painfully that both their bodies shook. Virak and the others finally made it to where Sun Won and Lida was. They circled Sun Won, who was bent over holding someone they couldn’t see.
“Brother,” said Virak he put his hand on Sun Won’s shoulder.
“Chan…Lida?” he asked in disbelief.
“With Bong thom here as my witnesses, I, Pin Sun Won, take Chan Lida as my wife ‘til eternity. I have nothing to give you Lida except my heart, which belonged to you from the first day we met.” He kissed her lips as he slipped on the ring. The others watched him in silence. They were surprised when because of all the time Sun Won had been their leader; he had never used his real name Sun Won before. They knew he was serious. When it was over, Sun Won lifted Lida up into his arms as he stood up. “As your leader, I have a final announcement to make. I am quitting Bong thom.”
“What do you plan to do then brother Lonely man?”
“Virak,” said Sun Won.
“This final meeting of Bong thom is now adjourned. I wish you all the best and hope you do find your true love because I have. Good bye.” Sun Won picked up Lida’s book and scribbled something into it. When he was done, he placed it down back on the rock. Then Sun Won lifted Lida’s body up into his arms as he walked away.
“Brother!” shouted Virak. “Where are you going?” Sun Won continued walking and didn’t answer him. The 5 Bong thom watched their leader walks towards the sunset carrying his bride and disappeared. They picked up the book to see what Sun Won had written.
|The last entry of Lida’s Story was, “LOOSING THE LOVE” it’s also the title of the song that she really loves to hear every early morning… if you want to know the exactly meaning of this song just come to Love FM 97.50 MHz “You want it you got it only on love FM 97.50 MHz” in the show called Breakfast show with a very pretty and cute voice of Dj. Kitty from 6am to 7.30am.
|Phnom Penh, July, 25 2004 by nothing_toxic|