What you don’t know


What you don’t know

What you don’t know
Is that your scars are beautiful
What you don’t know
Is your imperfections are what make me whole
What you don’t know
Is how I spiral down
Cause I can’t speak whenever you’re around

And it’s not like me to hide behind a wall
And it’s not like me to fear the fall.

What you don’t know
Is that I lie awake
Wishing you were here tonight
What you don’t know is
that I loved you long before we were alive
Cause how would you know, how could you know
So now I’m gonna tell you everything

What you don’t know
I have studied the way you walk
What you don’t know
Is I’ve already kissed you in the shadows of my heart
What you don’t know
Is that you’re poetry
If you turn around there’s someone you won’t see
Yeeaah

And it’s not like me to hide behind a wall

What you don’t know
is that I lie awake
Wishing you were here tonight
What you don’t know
Is that I loved you long before we were alive
But how would you know, how could you know?
So now I’m gonna tell you everything

What you don’t know
What you don’t know

What you don’t know
Is when the moon and the sun collide
The morning comes this time I won’t be afraid to try

What you don’t know
is that I lie awake
Wishing you were here tonight
What you don’t know
That I loved you long before we were alive
But how would you know, how could you know?
So now I’m gonna tell you everything

What you don’t know
Heey,
What you don’t know

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To my Beloved, nothing_toxic

I don’t mind at all that you are a busy bee! I want you to take care of business first. That is family, friends and your work place etc… it’s your priority! So take care of it first. I am just a misery to you whenever you have time hit me up! That is a slang word meaning get in touch with me. If you don’t know I’m pretty sure you do! Anyways I’m not expecting for you to be there for me every single day and night. I understand that you have a lot to get done. It is good to hear that you like everything that you do in your role because of me, I’m thankful for that! If I could help you get through the dark cloud that is getting in your way I will! Even though it is complicated for you right now. I’m sure you’ll do just fine, I have faith in you.

I know that I don’t know that much about you and your true feelings. If I remind you of someone in the past, let that feeling always be with you…with me! I like the way you are and who you are? I have this CHEMISTRY that I have for you from the start. I can’t recall how I end up falling into your perfection! And yes, it’s a dream! If you are a dreamer! I hope that you don’t want to wake up from your dream and not seeing him there lying next to you. I’m SORRY to put you through this! I’ve read your recently writing from you! INNUMERABLE of times! At countless nights and days even when I’m taking a shower! No need for me to take the paper that I print out for myself to take it with me to everywhere I go! It’s already been memorize in my head. Silly me! And yes, it is easy to love someone that you never knew! Better than someone that you used to know, am I right or wrong? It’s like a dream! Imagine this in a dream, when I stand in a wall full of mirrors all around me and there you were standing face to face with me. “picture this In your head” when I see you I put both of my palm up against the mirror with your palm the only thing that kept us from being together is the wall of mirror between us two! That I can’t get through to you! If only I could walk through the mirror I will! Just to be there with you not just one night but every night when I’m dreaming of you. I want to look at you in the eye and embrace myself to you with my arms wrap around you and my lusted lips touching yours with our eyes close! This is my LASCIVIOUS dream that I have for you! I hope it’s yours too! If you feeling me the way I feel about you! It’s just a dream! Whenever I think of you and read your letter it felt like I have a butterfly in my stomach!

What is the story behind Sakura and Hokkaido please explain it to me I don’t get it! You must of watch too many Japanese and Chinese movies I bet huh! Anyways, let me used Sakura and Hokkaido in my writing to see if you get it or not! I’m sure you will!

If Sakura decide to leave her from her misery whenever Hokkaido take her away from him and I will always know that he’ll be missing her very much. If Sakura can’t have her, there is no point of living to see Hokkaido has taken her away from him. If she doesn’t hear from him within six months to a year, he is in HEAVEN! He is no longer existed in the face of the earth. Whenever you think of him just look up to sky with a smile and he’ll smile back at you down from heaven! He’ll be waiting for you in heaven’s gate. When it’s your time to departure, it’s just like being at the airport waiting for your arrival. And he’ll be holding a sign saying I’m here for non-toxic! Then you’ll know that for all those time we’ve finally meet each other for the very first time in heaven. This letter is from Sakura the person that you never knew! Who’s longing to be with someone like you!


The video song “what you don’t know” this is my dedication to you! It will remind me of you! I promise you that! There will be no other. It has that meaning between me and you. I hope you are not dropping tears as you read my letter sent dearly to you from afar. I got the feeling that you will! It is sad to see Sakura has died not knowing that he did! Knowing that his soul is still alive but was unable to communicate to his beloved! So all he could do is watch her suffers the pain that she’s going through without him around to give her comfort and a shoulder to cry on! It is so sad, I guess I have to stop here for right now it is making me shedding endless tears again. I want you to take a good look at the video and figure it out on your own.

I want to say that I like you! I don’t want to say that I love you because it will not last forever, if it’s not really there! I rather say farewell instead of goodbye because saying goodbye only want to make me cry! And if I do say goodbye I will never going to see you or hear from you ever again! That’s the true meaning of goodbye!

I hope you like every letter that I wrote to you. If my writing is not emotional to you please disregard every letter that I’d sent to you! I want you to print it out on a piece of paper to take it with you to read to everywhere you go, read it when you’re bored or when you thinking of someone like me! I might not be around any longer, I feel like giving up in life, if you know what mean! I’d already express it in my writing. You should figure it out what I’m writing about! Before I go to Heaven I want to post my picture for you see, I don’t look like a normal person that you imagine me to be! I’m not that decent, I don’t fit the description of my role of course as you describe me as. Like they say don’t judge the book by its cover! You’ll never know what you’ll find until you open it up! I hope my looks don’t frighten you! I might be an ugly duckling but I have a good heart! So please don’t laugh at me! If you do decide to laugh please laugh silently and not me letting me hear your laugh!


From your beloved, misery forever yours! And take care……. I will be missing you dearly………………………too eternity!

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