Junk lunch


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Here she is this week has been hectic, don’t even have time to breath, she has to make it happen and successfully on the initialization day.

I pray for her to be alright and stay positive no matter in whatever circumstance..

Keep smiling, keep moving, keep going, keep it up..,

Without watering appropriately her plant complained, they used to be green and alive, but look at them now, falling leaf, falling apart… She will make all up to that..

Fighting!!!!

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Pero me acuerdo de ti


Translation: Spanish → English

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Ahora que ya mi vida se encuentra normal
Que tengo en casa quien suena con verme llegar
Ahora puedo decir que me encuentro de pie
Ahora que me va muy bien

Ahora que con el tiempo logre superar
Aquel amor que por poco me llega a matar
Ahora ya no hay mas dolor
Ahora el fin vuelvo a ser yo

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y otra vez pierdo la calma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se me desgarra el alma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se borra mi sonrisa
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y mi mundo se hace trizas

Ahora que me futuro comienza a brillar
Ahora que me han devuelto la seguridad
Ahora ya no hay mas dolor
Ahora al fin vuelvo a ser yo

**repeat, see above**

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y otra vez pierdo la calma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se me desgarra el alma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se borra mi sonrisa
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y mi mundo se hace trizas
English
But I Remember You
now that my life is normal (stable)
coming (arrival)
now I can say that I find myself standing
now that i’m doing very well

now that with time i was able to overcome
that love that almost managed to destroy me (kill me)
now there is no more pain
now finally i can be myself again

but i remember you
and again i lose my calm (peace)
but i remember you
and my soul gets torn
but i remember you
and my smile is erased
but i remember you
and my world becomes shattered

now that my future is starting to shine
now that my confidence has returned
now there is no more pain
now finally i can be myself again

**repeat, see above**

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y otra vez pierdo la calma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se me desgarra el alma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se borra mi sonrisa
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y mi mundo se hace trizas

Silence


Silence is abandon

Silence is bandage

Silence is confusing/cheating

Silence is delusion

Silence is ego

Silence is frightening

Silence is golden

Silence is hitch

Silence is insane/ignoring

Silence is joy

Silence is killing

Silence is leaving

Silence is melvin

Silence is nothing

Silence is oasis

Silence is painful

Silence is quiet

Silence is romance

Silence is scary

Silence is universe

Silence is vow

Silence is wise

Silence is XXX

Silence is yard

Silence is zest

Conversation


He said she makes things complicated,
He said she is selfish and blinded,
He said she is unreasonable,
He said she is tough and difficult person,
He said she is wrong and possessive,
He said she is greedy and wanted endless..
Put the blames on her, she must be an idiot???

Most of argument came from within self-judgement
Most of argument came from less understanding
Most of argument came from various aspects
Most of argument came from own reasons
Most of argument came from both sides wanted to win
Most of argument came from delusion and hatred
Most of argument came from her???

Why all from her??

Gathering at Fig


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Found a pretty cool place to rest and retreat your messy feeling after hectic days.

Her friends picked her up after late training, dinner was a huge deal, she ate like she will never eat again, Banh Can, absolutely fresh vegetable and many Vietnamese cuisine styles — yummy 🙂

Fig with Buddhi tree is another good choice that her both beautiful girls drive her to, look at the entrance of this place and enjoy the sentiment, fresh your heart and receive the joys, clear your sparking power.. take a deep breath, you could not find the place like this easily..

She did miss Hi-End Coffee since years back, romantic Jazz music recall my journal moment, 2005 around the bad timing.. Though, Fig replaced the moment.

Here you go…

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Disconnected


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She does not want write anymore,
She does not want to talk anymore,
She does not want to stay anymore,
She does not want to tell anymore,
She does not want to go on like this anymore..

But I know..

She wanted to read more and more letters from him,
She aggressively wanted to hear more and more of his voice, smiles, simple expression..
She wanted to learn more and more about his wise optimism
She is curious and can’t be patient,
She is miserably selfish existing in her own world
She found no direction to go on, she gets lose and fall upon insanity,
She has many doubts and pondered a lot..
She asked me to be her listener…
She asked my shoulder to cry over..
She ask me to guide further..
To go/no-go is her decision..

To disconnect her impossible sentiment and dreams
To disconnect her compassion
To disconnect her emotion
To disconnect her imagination
To disconnect her silly expectation
To disconnect everything..

To keep quiet is a painful communication
To wait for response is harder than starving
To live without spirit an heart is like a dead person,
To breath in/out and swallow the sorrow
To drink away hopelessness
To take away useless teardrops

What else she could do to disconnect her world from his world?

Why can’t she follow her emotional feeling?
Why not she let it go?
Why not she accept the way it is?
Why not she accept the idea KISS?

What make her blind an stupid?

No available flight, no available connection..

What else she would do to chase Agee her dreams..

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Insanity


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Damp..

So stubborn gal, she did not listen to me as she used to.

She became insane and someone that I’ve never known before.

She make my life complicated with her stupidity.

She is really nobody to anyone but she could help me to stay positive, optimistic.

Her generosity and integrity make living a better person.

I just don’t know why she did not listen to my heart anymore.

She totally dumped me and want me to cry my tear every single night.

I told her to stop, she did not, I told her to smile, she cries, I told her to go, she stay backward, I told her to wait, she left, I told her to step, she ran…