At some points in life you had to stand strong, acted like nothing wrong. You know where you are now but seem that you don’t know how to adjust well into a situation that you didn’t belong.. regret doesn’t help but move on as well get stuck..
I didn’t want to blame myself for being so strong.. so what else you could do better what was already been chosen? Wanna go back? Wanna move on? I had to accept the fact, was born alone and gone back alone.. life isn’t exactly the way you wanted to be.. can I have a life that I can be myself, wasn’t ill, wasn’t disappointed, wasn’t offended, wasn’t depressed.. all I know that I’m very blessed compared to the worst.. 
Faith will move mountain 